Sunday, May 8, 2011

The Hardest Holiday

Today is Mother's Day in America as many of you know. Let me start with, I really do admire moms out there, and I can't begin to imagine the hardwork, love, and dedication it takes to raise a child. That said, Mother's Day is the hardest holiday for me as I don't have a mother. Well, technically I do, but, we haven't spoken to one another in seven years. For me, Mother's Day is a reminder of what I don't have- a mother and/or children, so it can be a bit tough for me. And now I found out that my cousin who is struggling with many things in her life is receiving a great deal of emotional support from my mother- the same woman who offered me little when I was going through an extremely difficult period myself. Talk about the proverbial salt in the wound.
So today I salute the good moms out there, the ones I know face whatever challenge their child's life presents them. The moms who support, even when they don't know what to do. The moms who love unconditionally. The moms who give in ways I cannot imagine, because at many trying moments in my life I never saw that from my own mother; especially during the dark hours I needed it most. I'm working on not being bitter, but, life has a funny way of reminding me that I'm not completely over somethings. Well, I guess it's a one step at a time scenario, eh?
I hope you all are having a happy Mother's Day or at least a happy Sunday. I promise my next post won't be such a 'Debbie Downer' one. Love you all!


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you and your Mom are not speaking. Maybe someday, you'll get it worked out.
Mother's Day in France is May 29th. You can come here and I'll be your mom for the day!

annelise said...

I just saw this post!

Ugh, that's got to suck. Bad enough she didn't support you but to support someone else? I don't blame you for being a little bit bitter, I would be too.

How have you been lately (other than Mother's Day)? How's the eye recovering?