Saturday, July 17, 2010

Leo's Latest and Gaining Perspective

Okay how can you not laugh at this picture? Eventhough, I'm kinda blue about my job situation this picture of Leo napping makes me smile. Despite the crummy week, and summer for that matter, I recieved good news in regards to Leo. We have reached the halfway point in his recovery. He is now allowed to be off leash in the house and move about freely (but to be monitored so he doesn't jump nor run). We also can take him for short walks to build up his strength and he can go back to limited training. To say I'm relieved and excited is an understatement. Leo has loved his new sense of freedom, though we often have to put him back in his kennel to settle because he wants to play! In a couple of weeks he will get x-rays done of his broken leg and depending on what those images show he may get his pins out then, or we may wait a couple of weeks. Either way, we've reached the last part of this recovery process! Can I hear a hallelujah?
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Of course, I'm still processing the whole job situation. Tough decisions are being mulled over and it's hard not to be upset at myself for what happened. I tend to be hyper responsible, so in this case, I have the thought that maybe if I had just tried harder to keep the business running this wouldn't have happened. However, I don't know how to run a business do I? My boss and the other partners did not, or were not, able to provide the leadership and guidance I needed to do my job even better than I did. All I can do is learn from this and move on.
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It's so hard, especially since I have to consider other options, work wise, as I have a life to live and dreams/goals I want to accomplish. Those cannot be 'funded' without a certain degree of financial stability. While money is not the most important thing to me, I can't discount it. If I didn't have monetary stability how could I take care of my car if it broke down, for example? What if I were to get very ill or injured? While I adore teaching piano, just teaching won't cut it if worse case scenarios were to play out will it?
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I am still in the middle of mulling things over, but, every day is helping me gain perspective. The fears are still there, the hurt is still there, but, with time those are getting less and I realize I have to take care of myself. I cannot continue waiting and waiting for things to come together at the studio. I have been with them for five years. This position was, as I was told, supposed to lead to more salary (with more responsibilities and students) and insurance- all within a year. In the end it didn't work out that way and a great deal of that was well out of my control. Now it's time to explore what my options are and keep an eye out for opportunities that are even better than what I have. Thank you all for the kind supportive words, those have helped so much! Bear with me as I close up this part of my life and work to start a new and hopefully better chapter.

13 comments:

The Pliers said...

Habebi,

Losing a job, no matter how half-assed or dead-end it might have been, is always a challenging process to move through.

On the one hand, it is upsetting for all the usual reasons. On the other hand, it is liberating, for while you would never have given up the "bird in the hand" on your own, the fact that circumstances are forcing you to do so is, in many ways, a gift. As you wrap your mind around the impending change, your energy will rise and you will find your way to something better. I'd bet money on it. So, in advance of your new opportunity's arrival on the horizon, I congratulate you and wish you the very best of luck in your new job search!

AmitiƩs,

Sarah Price said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your job loss... these are unfortunate circumstances that are happening every day. I really love and respect your positive outlook to the future. The cup is surely half full! Someone who possesses as much enthusiasm and creativity will surely find their niche that can offer you the stability and support that you deserve. Keep your chin up and hug on Leo when you need some extra TLC.

Habebi said...

Pliers- I hadn't thought of it that way, but, you very right. It is a gift, an opening, opportunity- whatever you want to call it. I am hoping for something better that'll give me more opportunities in life. I will work to cast a wide net and keep an eye out for the 'right' one.

You words are very encouraging! I am so lucky to have you as a friend! Merci ma chere amie!

Habebi said...

Sarah P- You are too kind, thank you hun! Yes, people loose jobs and many end up in worse circumstances than what I am in. In that I'm lucky. I am rather surprised how down I've felt about it in part because I know it could be so much worse. However, I don't want to stay 'blue' you know and that's were the 'glass half full' mentality comes into play. I hope that will help as I wade new waters! Again thank you for your kind words and good luck with the new chapter you are about approach in your life!

Sarah said...

More (((HUGS))) for ya, babe. Let me know if I can help in any way, shape, or form, and HUZZAH for Leo! Maybe once he's back to normal, you'll get a new job and EVERYTHING will be a brand new, much more solid normal. I live in constant hope of normal! ;) Miss you!

Habebi said...

Sarah- ((HUGS)) back to ya girl!! Thank you so, so much!! Though I know there's going to be some bumpy spots ahead I think this will start a much better chapter in my life. One where I can actually do more with myself, reach those goals I have, without a fear of not having enough mula. Thank you so much girl! I miss ya too and hope we can pow-wow/bitch soon.

Caitie said...

I was sorry to read about your job loss. It feels like someone has cut the rope from your anchor, I know. Good luck :-)

And I'm glad to read that Leo is doing better. And I LOVE his name. Has always been a favourite of mine.

Also, love the fact you're in Irish dance! Your costumes seem really professional. My sister was in ID for six years, but her class never went to competitions. If you haven't seen this on You Tube, you should check out Greek Irish Dancers, from Britain's Got Talent. It's a father son spoof of Michael Flatley and it's hilarious!

Will have you laughing in no time.

Sara Louise said...

And yes, a new and exciting chapter is definitely around the corner! xo

Habebi said...

Caitie- Hey girl! Welcome to my little corner of blaghland. Thanks for stopping by and for the awesome words of support. You are very sweet- thank you!

I can't believe your sister was in ID! Small, small world isn't it? I remember hearing something about this video, so I will go check it out.

So glad to have you here and I hope you drop by again. Take it easy in Swiss!

Habebi said...

Sara Louise- Merci! xo

Jessica said...

I internalize a lot too. Just remember that this isn't your fault and that you couldn't have prevented it. I will keep my fingers crossed that something even better comes your way and that you're able to get through this period with your chin still held high.

And man do I love it when lab sleep like this... love!

Habebi said...

Jessica- You are a sweetheart!! Thank you so, so much! It's hard not to blame myself as that's the easiest way for me to understand such shock and hurt like this. My boss and the other partners are my friends not just employers. And while I get this was a 'business' decision it's hard to swallow and not take it personally.

That said, however, you're right. In the end there was nothing I could do about it. Though the warning signs were all over the place I did all I could with what I had at the time and hoped for the best; that we would weather the storm. That didn't work out however and that isn't on me.

I hope that when I do find a new position I can have the support and help when I need it. While I can make just about anything work, being left in the dark and on my own with no imput was extremely difficult! I loved the freedom I was given to figure things out and create, however the downfall of that is they just weren't there when I needed more guidance. So frustrating and I'm surprised sometimes how I just took it! lol

Yes, labs sleeping like this is the BEST! Makes me smile no matter how I'm feeling!

Habebi said...

Jessica- You are a sweetheart!! Thank you so, so much! It's hard not to blame myself as that's the easiest way for me to understand such shock and hurt like this. My boss and the other partners are my friends not just employers. And while I get this was a 'business' decision it's hard to swallow and not take it personally.

That said, however, you're right. In the end there was nothing I could do about it. Though the warning signs were all over the place I did all I could with what I had at the time and hoped for the best; that we would weather the storm. That didn't work out however and that isn't on me.

I hope that when I do find a new position I can have the support and help when I need it. While I can make just about anything work, being left in the dark and on my own with no imput was extremely difficult! I loved the freedom I was given to figure things out and create, however the downfall of that is they just weren't there when I needed more guidance. So frustrating and I'm surprised sometimes how I just took it! lol

Yes, labs sleeping like this is the BEST! Makes me smile no matter how I'm feeling!